It's like all that time I was gone has come back to haunt me.

Everyone else seems to know exactly how to draw what they want to draw...

While I'm so far behind that I'm struggling to do even the most basic things...

My mind's telling me to just keep drawing and doing whatever I can to get better.

But my body can't handle it...
Every time I go, I start shaking because I'm so scared of going to that class.

I can't do what the others can do and I know I'm never going to receive positive criticism. More than anything, I can't forgive myself for letting this all happen...

I keep asking myself, “Why did I run away that time...?”

I don't think you were running away from anything, Ena.

It may be true that drawing illustrations for N25 won't necessarily give you opportunities to learn anything new or improve your skills.

But in my opinion, your art has improved compared to when we first met. It's clear that you're always looking for the best way to illustrate the music Mafuyu and I make.

I've recently been catching myself thinking just how much I like what you draw, Ena. You have this way of conveying so many different feelings all at once.

But I remember being confused by your old illustrations in terms of what you were trying to express because of how you used odd colors and bent lines.

I'm still confused sometimes, but I understand your art better than before.

But if you really felt like running away, I doubt you would've drawn all these things.

<Whoa, this one's from forever ago! You know, I never really get tired of seeing this girl and her floral hairpiece.>

<Right. The girl's body is turned the other way, but the background and flowers on her hair piece make you think about what sort of expression she may have.>

<This was from when we made that song that made very different impressions on each person that listened to it.>

<That was why I wanted you to draw something that reflected that and also had the same effect. In the end, it matched perfectly with the song.>

<But I remember that I took too long designing the whole thing and made us upload later than usual.>

<No, this was definitely worth the time. There's also...>

<Yes... I thought that I should actually tell you.>

<That your artwork isn't just an accessory.>

I'm saying that you'll keep feeling this pain if you choose to continue drawing...

You won't always be able to produce works that satisfy you. Can you deal with that pain moving forward?