Live House
Backstage
Ken
Alright, go show them what you've got!
An, Kohane, Akito & Toya
We will!!
Akito
Alright, let's begin our debrief.
We'll start like always by talking about what we could've done better.
We'll start like always by talking about what we could've done better.
Kohane
Okay, so... I feel like we could've done a slightly better job today of building up anticipation during the pre-chorus...
Toya
...
A few months later
Kohane
Phew...
Another exhausting day.
Another exhausting day.
An
Tell me about it!
I'm probably gonna collapse on my bed when I get home.
I'm probably gonna collapse on my bed when I get home.
Kohane
Hehe. I know the feeling.
Like when you start nodding off while drying your hair after taking a nice bath.
Like when you start nodding off while drying your hair after taking a nice bath.
An
Exactly!
Then you sleep like a log, and all of a sudden you open your eyes and it's morning.
Then you sleep like a log, and all of a sudden you open your eyes and it's morning.
Kohane
In that sense, our lifestyle's been really hectic lately.
Kohane
But...
Kohane
I can't thank your dad enough, An.
I've been having a lot of fun improving so much.
I've been having a lot of fun improving so much.
Kohane
An... I promise to try harder.
So that we can surpass RAD WEEKEND together.
So that we can surpass RAD WEEKEND together.
An
...
*Nod*
*Nod*
Kohane
Oh no! The light's about to turn red!
See you later, An!
See you later, An!
An
Okay!
Get home safe!
Get home safe!
An's Room
An
*Sigh*
An
(What am I doing...?)
An
(Ever since that day, I've been trying to figure out what to do about these feelings.)
An
(But it happened again today...)
Kohane
An... I promise to try harder.
So that we can surpass RAD WEEKEND together.
So that we can surpass RAD WEEKEND together.
An
(I couldn't genuinely smile back at her...)
An
(I couldn't...look her in the eye...)
An
(I can't let things go on like this...)
An
(But what am I supposed to do...?)
Luka
Why don't you just tell her everything?
An
(Tell her...)
An
(But if I did that...)
An
A message? But it's so late...
Who's it from...?
Who's it from...?
An
Huh?
Thirty minutes later
An
He should be somewhere around... Aha!
An
Toya!
Toya
Sorry, Shiraishi.
I know it's late.
I know it's late.
An
No, that's totally fine!
An
But what are you doing out so late?
We could've talked after practice, you know?
We could've talked after practice, you know?
Toya
I wasn't sure it was the best time to do it.
Toya
I was hoping we could talk when neither Akito nor Azusawa were around.
An
Huh?
Toya
The truth is, there's something I realized I have to say to you regarding the problem you told us about a few months ago.
An
...!
Do you mean...?!
Do you mean...?!
Toya
Remember what Luka suggested when you talked to us? She said that you may want to try telling Azusawa what you've been feeling...
Toya
But you chose not to.
Are you with me so far?
Are you with me so far?
An
Uh... Yeah.
Toya
I couldn't get the way you looked that time out of my head.
Toya
Because it reminded me of someone else.
An
It did...?
Toya
Yes.
I wasn't sure...until now.
I wasn't sure...until now.
Toya
But you're repeating the same mistake.
Toya
The one I made when I tried to leave BAD DOGS.
An
What?
Toya
That time, I tried to leave without actually telling Akito how I felt.
Toya
I was afraid of telling him that I didn't have a big dream like he did. I was afraid of telling him the truth.
Toya
Because...
Toya
I was afraid of disappointing him.
Toya
I agreed to chase after his dream as his partner, so I didn't want to let him down... I was afraid of what he'd say.
An
You were afraid...?
Toya
Don't you feel the same way, Shiraishi...?
An
Um...
Toya
I have the feeling that you're afraid of what Azusawa is going to say if you decide to tell her the truth.
An
(I'm afraid...?)
An
(Is that what's been going on with me...?)
An
(Have I been...?)
An
...
An
Yeah, you might be right.
An
When you put it all together like that, it becomes obvious that I've been super scared.
Toya
...
An
Which means...
I'm also afraid of letting Kohane down.
I'm also afraid of letting Kohane down.
An
I mean...
An
Every time she looks my way, her eyes sparkle.
An
Plus, she always talks about how exciting the way I sing is, that I'm really cool... And how she looks up to me.
An
But... I'm none of those things.
An
I'm really just scared and weak... More than I realized...
An
I know I just have to keep trying, but every time I hear Kohane sing, it brings back that anxiety...
Toya
Shiraishi...
An
I'm pretty sure that Kohane won't feel disappointed or anything after she sees the real me.
An
I have a feeling that she'll say she still looks up to me regardless of who I really am.
An
Which means I'm getting all scared over nothing.
An
But...
An
I don't want things to be that way.
An
I don't want Kohane to see how lame I really am. I don't want her to know.
An
I want her to genuinely believe in me...
An
Which is why... I don't want to tell her anything.
An
When I said how I didn't want to tell her...
It wasn't really for her sake.
It wasn't really for her sake.
An
I was just...trying to protect myself...
Toya
I understand what you're saying.
Toya
The more someone means to you, the greater the fear of disappointing them becomes.
Toya
Which is why I also hid what I was feeling.
Toya
However...
Toya
I only felt like I was Akito's real partner after I told him the truth.
Toya
Yes, the thought of disappointing someone is scary.
Toya
But telling them the truth can lead to new doors opening.
Toya
At least, that's what I believe.
An
Toya...
An
...
Okay.
Okay.
An
Thanks.
An
Give me some time to think.
An
About how I'm going to tell Kohane everything.
Next Chapter: Our Bout Begins