A few minutes later
1
Kanade
*Sigh*
2
Rin
<Feel better, Kanade?>
3
Kanade
Yes, thank you...
4
Mizuki
<Thank goodness! Man, you had us worried there for a second. We were all working and then we heard this big thud!>
5
Ena
<I thought my heart was gonna stop when I heard that you'd collapsed, Kanade.>
6
Kanade
Oh... I-I'm sorry...
7
Mizuki
<Rin and Mafuyu told us everything earlier.>
8
Mizuki
<The song you're composing really has you stuck, huh?>
9
Kanade
Oh...
10
Mizuki
<We can't really give you any advice when it comes to composing music...>
11
Mizuki
<But if there's something else bothering you, we'd like it if you could tell us.>
12
Ena
<Yeah. Telling us might help clear your head and make way for some good ideas.>
13
Kanade
...
14
Kanade
Right...
15
Kanade
I'm struggling to capture it...
16
Kanade
The warmth Mafuyu felt.
17
Ena
<You're struggling to capture it, huh...>
18
Ena
<Can you tell us exactly why you feel that way?>
19
Kanade
So, I realized something after hearing that story and talking to Mafuyu's dad...
20
Kanade
The warmth Mafuyu felt when having those apple slices was an expression of her mom's love...
21
Kanade
I've been trying to work that into this song...
But it hasn't been going very well.
22
Ena
<I see...>
23
Mizuki
<Still, that's really surprising.
I feel like you'd have no trouble capturing that.>
24
Kanade
...
25
Rin
<Do you know what's causing this, Kanade?>
26
Kanade
I had a dream just now...
27
Kanade
It was about Mafuyu being taken somewhere by her mom.
28
Mizuki
<What...?>
29
Kanade
That was when I realized...
30
Kanade
I'm having trouble composing this song because I still don't entirely trust her.
31
Ena
<You don't trust her?>
32
Kanade
*Nod*
33
Kanade
In Mafuyu's memories of her, as well as the story Mr. Asahina told me... She's a devoted, and deeply loving person.
34
Kanade
But...
35
Kanade
When I'm composing...
I keep being reminded of the coldness I felt when I actually met her.
36
Rin
<Oh...>
37
Kanade
I think that's what's getting in the way of me fully realizing that warmth they talked about.
38
Kanade
As a result, I've spent all this time running around in circles...
39
Kanade
I just can't align the person they remember with the person I spoke to...
40
Ena
<...>
41
Ena
<I kinda get what you mean, Kanade.>
42
Ena
<I haven't talked to her in person like you, Kanade, but I have over the phone... And even from that, I could hardly believe a word of what Mafuyu was telling us earlier.>
43
Mizuki
<And Kanade, you've been doing so much to protect Mafuyu all this time.>
44
Mizuki
<Maybe that's helped widen this gap you're feeling.>
45
Kanade
...
46
Ena
<But if you think about it...>
47
Ena
<It's completely normal for you to feel that way, isn't it?>
48
Kanade
Huh...?
49
Ena
<I mean, how you see someone can be totally different from the way others view them.>
50
Ena
<And of course, understanding how someone else sees something isn't as simple as just hearing a few stories from them.>
51
Ena
<At least, that's my experience.>
52
Mizuki
<Yeah, you might be right...
And we're talking about a person's family here.>
53
Mizuki
<Some people can only act a certain way when they're with their families, you know? Others don't get to see that behavior...>
54
Mizuki
<We have no way of knowing what happens behind closed doors. The good and the bad.>
55
Kanade
T-True...
56
Kanade
(They're both right...)
57
Kanade
(I don't think there's any way to make the way Mafuyu sees her mom align perfectly with how I picture her.)
58
Kanade
(But unless I find some way to do it, I won't ever be able to finish this song...)
59
Kanade
(Is that even possible...?)
60
Kanade
(I mean...)
61
Ena
<Hey, Kanade?>
62
Ena
<At this point, I feel that all you can do is go and see for yourself.>
63
Kanade
What?
64
Ena
<If I were you, I wouldn't be happy with whatever it is that I made unless I solved the puzzle you're dealing with first.>
65
Ena
<So, I think you should go, see for yourself... And then put that sensation, whatever you find, into your song.>
66
Kanade
Oh...
67
Ena
<That might help bring your vision closer to Mafuyu's. Or, it could make things even harder for you...>
68
Ena
<But as long as you don't know for sure, I don't think you'll be able to move from where you are now.>
69
Kanade
I agree...
70
Kanade
Honestly, I didn't want to learn any more than I had to about Mafuyu's mom.
71
Kanade
Because I was so convinced that we'd never see eye to eye. I felt that I didn't have to make an effort to understand her...
72
Kanade
But...
73
Kanade
That won't be enough.
74
Kanade
I can't compose based on information that I don't have. It's impossible for me to turn a feeling I don't hold within myself into sound.
75
Kanade
That's how things have always been for me...
76
Ena
<Kanade...>
77
Kanade
Which is why...
I feel that I should get to know Mafuyu's mom better.
78
Rin
<You're looking a lot better already, Kanade.>
79
Kanade
*Nod*
I'm sorry for making you worry so much, Rin.
80
Rin
<No, that's okay. Anyway, good luck.>
81
Kanade
Thank you.
82
Kanade
Then, I'll contact Mafuyu's mom now and...
83
Ena
<What?! Now?! Are you crazy?!
You need to keep resting!!>
84
Kanade
Oh, right...
But sleeping feels like such a waste.
I want to keep working on...
85
Ena
<Are you still there, Mafuyu?! Get in here and put Kanade to bed already!>
86
Mafuyu
What was that?
87
Kanade
Oh, Mafuyu...
88
Mafuyu
I heard Ena shouting just now.
89
Ena
<Kanade said she's gonna keep working on that song! She needs to take it easy for the rest of the day!!>
90
Mafuyu
...!
91
Mafuyu
Is that true, Kanade?
92
Kanade
U-Uhh...
93
Mafuyu
I said I don't want you to push yourself so hard, didn't I?
94
Kanade
I-I'm sorry.
I promise to spend today resting.
95
Kanade
I'm really sorry, Mafuyu...
96
Mafuyu
About what?
97
Kanade
About not being able to properly compose this song.
98
Kanade
I want to know more...
99
Kanade
About you and your mom.
100
Kanade
Once I do...once I have a grasp on that warmth, I know I'll be able to do it right.
101
Kanade
So, please bear with me for a bit longer.
102
Mafuyu
Kanade...
103
Mafuyu
...
104
Mafuyu
I...
105
Kanade
What?
106
Mafuyu
I also want to know more.
107
Mafuyu
I'm scared, but...
108
Mafuyu
I want to see if what I felt was real.
109
Kanade
Mafuyu...
110
Kanade
Okay. Then, let's go find out together.
Next Chapter: Resolve